This is a tough one — do you feel sorry for Rachel Dolezal?
Or did she create her own issues with that almost unbelievable controversy two years ago when it came to light she was a white woman pretending to be black?
Now two years after her memorable and almost surreal scandal broke, Dolezal is nearly homeless, unable to find any kind of work, and living off food stamps.
And no, she still doesn’t believe she did anything wrong.
There’s a fascinating piece up over at The Guardian that goes deep on Dolezal, where she is today, what she’s been going through the last two years, and what she thinks about the scandal she created for the NAACP.
Dolezal seems completely uninterested in taking any responsibility for causing her own scandal or owning up to her flat-out lie about being black, as she indicated in telling the publication this (below):
“I’m not going to stoop and apologize and grovel and feel bad about it. I would just be going back to when I was little, and had to be what everybody else told me I should be — to make them happy.”
Now 39 years old, Dolezal lost her job at the NAACP, was removed from her position as an adjunct instructor at Eastern Washington University, and in the two years since, she apparently hasn’t been able to find any work.
Now living on food stamps to feed her family, and living with a friend, Dolezal expects she’ll be homeless by next month when her housing situation will apparently come to an end.
And yet she still stands strong in what she believes to be the truth, saying:
“Right now the only place I feel understood and completely accepted is with my kids and my sister. The narrative was that I’d offended both communities in an unforgivable way, so anybody who gave me a dime would be contributing to wrong and oppression and bad things. To a liar and fraud and a con.”
And while Dolezal wrote a book about the whole ordeal to tell her side of the story, more than 30 publishing houses rejected her.
“The times I tried to explain more, I wasn’t understood more. Nobody wanted to hear, ‘I’m pan-African, pro-black, bisexual, an artist, mother and educator.’ People would just be like, ‘Huh? What? What are you talking about?’ So I felt like by not talking about my biological ancestry, I gave people the opportunity to relate to me as an individual, not part of a group.”
Now, though, as dark as the day may be, there’s one thing Dolezal will NEVER do… go back to identifying as white.
She said, regarding whether she’d ever “become” white again:
“No. This is still home to me. I didn’t feel like I’m ever going to be hurt so much that I somehow leave who I am, because I’m me. It really is who I am. It’s not a choice.”
What do U think, Perezcious readers?!
Let us know your thoughts in the comments (below), and read the whole piece HERE.
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